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Thursday, September 28, 2006 @ 9:11 PM
my sentiments "我已对这世界和周遭的人与事感到彻底的绝望。我再也没力气挣扎，没智力思考，也没能力哭泣。我已尽了所有的勉力但最终我还是决定放弃，因为我已歇斯底里，无能为力，也感到好累好累呀！我想已经没什么是值得我去眷恋了吧。。。" above was extracted from a blog i happen to hop to. and guess what this person wrote is how i feel too at times.. im so tired.. Sunday, September 24, 2006 @ 2:39 PM
meteor garden 2 im quite slow considering that yesterday was the first time i watch meteor garden part 2. was just bored so i watched it. bt guess i gt something meaningful out of it "when u share ur unhappiness with someone, ur unhappiness will be halved" "when u share your joy with someone, ur joy will be doubled" hw true can this be? bt i guess its true somehow. yesterday was just a slacking day for me. rot at home the whole day, but i just enjoyed it. it feels good to have nothing on your shoulders for once and just let ur brain shut down. BUT i forgt to watch my cartoons yesterday.. Saturday, September 23, 2006 @ 6:41 PM
busy workin year.. its a busy workin year for me esp during year end. the number of people celebrating their birthdays is scary.. starts from sep.. all the way to jan.. buying presents alone can make me broke already u know? to make things worst there's still christmas.. does that help at all? the whole animal kingdom, including me are year end babies. and the birthdays starts from oct. den i have my other friends.. the tot of it now is scary. maybe i should just disappear into thin air. haha! as if i can right? its about another 3 weeks more before i start my rover course.. kinda cool.. this is probably one of the most useful things u get to do during your 2 years of service for the nation. at least this is wat i tink.. friend was telling me abt a supposed gathering.. which i happen not to know. but i wasn't the slightest upset you know? haha! anyway in the end even if they were to come out without me, they wun lose anything and i wun lose anything too! since i can adopt the "oh im so not bothered" attitude and i am oh so broke now~ my cheque book is here.. haha! but i have no money to write cheques.. hrmmz? Sunday, September 17, 2006 @ 1:53 AM
series of unlucky events im so i'd like to thank Ken. somehow we ain't talkin on the phone, we ain't talkin on msn too(at the current moment). but i'm glad and happy that you replied to my messages on that particular unlucky sunday. even though i only told you about the theft case. but still am happy you replied despite the late time. if you ever read this blog of mine. thanks again =) you managed to at least make me relieve the tension i had that day. guess you're quite a gem in my life. you'll be my friend. and i hope i can be there for you when you need me too. this is not a promise given to any tom, dick or harry. its a promise given to people whom i treasure only. i mean it when i say it. im broke. almost cant pay for insurance already. i need my money soon. but i cant find the heart to ask the money back from my friends. because i know they are in the same situation as me. am i dumb or am i dumb? Friday, September 15, 2006 @ 7:26 PM
worn out. tired do u still remember that we actually were suppose to meet up some time, somehow? i wonder whether it was an empty promise u made to me to make me feel good then and there. but still.. i had high hopes then. but now? i don't dare to imagine what the consequences will be like. its scary when u tell yourself u know someone. but yet at times u feel so stranger when u see the person. has this feeling ever occured in your life? i know i had this feeling sometime back. it was scary. i felt so alien. or was it because of things that happened around me that made me feel like an alien? i hope to show care and concern as a friend. but yet im afraid of what the reaction might be like. has time made our friendship much weaker? or have you forgotten that u have a friend maybe by the name dAv in your memory lane. have u left him somewhere and u just refuse to pick him up again? its really beyond what words can say to describe the day i saw you, talk to you and had fun with you. i guess it'll be a scary moment. cos maybe i just can't understand the you at this present moment. or have i changed so much that you don't know who and how dAv is like now? is this a question to you OR am i asking myself these questions? i'm confused. i can't forget the days we had together. the fun we had. yet i cant exactly remember when was the last time we had such fun? was it sometime after i came back? how much time did we spend together? its not the quantity but quality. but did we really had quality time together? i can't recall what has happened. would u bother to ask me out someday? would u even know my existence by then? would u remember the times we had? the silly things we done together? did u know that i was upset? did u know i was the one who usually gives in cos i dun wish to have people around me to be unhappy? did u know that eventually i was the supportive one? did u remember the words that i have told you? did u realise that i felt very awkward that day cos i didnt know the other friends of yours but i still stayed on? did u know i felt lonely that day cos no one was talking to me except u? did u realise i somehow looked weird in that photo we took that day? did u know i left early but i had no one to meet? did you know that im worried that u will be hurt some day and u dun have anyone to count on den? DO u know that i am confused why am i asking these questions now when i know u might not even bother? DO you know that im feeling upset as i'm typing this entry but still i'm continuing? i dun even know if you will be seeing this post, if u did, will u know who am i refering to. do you? i shouldn't think. she said u changed. u looked and felt different from the past. she didn't see you for mayb a longer time. but we treated you as besties. or mayb not? at least i know i treated you like one. but i need people to reciprocate. it can't be a one sided thing. i told a friend of mine that i guess i have been in the best form i could for a very long time and im very tired already. she said i should not be upset and said that i have definitely done my part as a friend. bt how can i not be bothered? im telling myself that maybe its temporary. so temporary might mean months? or would it actually be an infinite date that we have already forgotten each other's presence. and then one day when you flip through your albums you will say something like "hey, this guy looks famliliar, i tink its dav, i wonder how he is now?" wouldn't it be too late den? dun say sorry when u think you might not be in the wrong, say it only when u tink you're really in the wrong. a sorry is worthless when u dun mean it. call me a friend, a bestie only when u tink i am one now in the present. and not think about the past and say something like "hey, i tink you are my best friend cos u did this and this in the past" i dun tink i deserve it now cos u said its in the past. maybe i haven't done anything that allowed u to remember its and effort of dav that tried to make your life better. sometimes i think you are happier with other people right now. sometimes i forget how your smile look like. if you are happier with others i'll let go all my worries. i'll wish you with all the happiness you can find and not bother you anymore. cos i know i've gt to release u, let you move on to the road called happiness. and goodbye will never be said, cos a goodbye might hurt even more. i'm not in love with you. cos i cant. i somehow seem to know you too well. and things will never happen cos i nv loved u as a girlfriend. bt loved u as a friend only. till the day i find the ans to tell myself that i know i shan't be bothered with such stuff. i know that i can somehow remember of some stuff that will upset me somehow. "friends are an important part in life" "only true friends will stay by your side when u need them" i dun wish to rant more. cos it ain't a happy entry. Sunday, September 10, 2006 @ 3:11 PM
Jeraine 1 month Jeraine is about 1 month old already.. she's dam cute la!long tiny fingers.. oh my god.. cant believe i saw sucha cute baby.. tot could do some catching up before i went there.. but things aint picture perfect.. so had an impromptu meeting with one of my "wives" asked her out to drink with me.. wanted to drink.. but not beer, not hard liquor.. wanted to drink wine.. but lazy me didnt want to go to town.. luckily suddenly remembered that there is this restaurant and bar place at bishan park.. so went there to drink.. i wanted to drink red, but the other wanted to drink white.. ended up getting 1 bottle of white wine which cost like $45 but was dam nice.. had a great chat and catching up a lil.. guess the alcohol makes me feel much better after the session.. wasnt unhappy with things already.. great wine with good company makes everything go well... anyone wants to date me? im dateless.. Saturday, September 09, 2006 @ 12:28 PM
magical 1 i finally hit the magical number 1.. yes! its finally 1 year since i gt enlisted into the army.. last year this time.. i was still sitting there waiting to get my stuff.. surrendered my pink IC to the dam guy in green.. and its been a year.. over the year, my only achievement is losing some fats off my body and look a lil better? that's all. went in with the mindset that i hate the place. after 1 year, i still say i hate the place. people say the remaining 1 year will pass very fast.. bt i doubt so. enlisting has always been a skin problem to me. somehow i always have breakouts that i do not have in the past since i enlisted.. i need a nice facial. i want to leave the place. but i dun have a choice.. Sunday, September 03, 2006 @ 6:21 PM
that's IT! im washing my hands off certain issues that i wanted to intervene.. that's all i have to say.. had a piece of my mind.. =D @ 1:49 AM
singapore idol - Joakim Gomez pardon me if i spelt his name wrongly im not a fan of singapore idol 2.. personally i like idol 1 much more.. niwayz, blog hopped a lil in the afternoon and found this from mr miyagi's site cool leh.. they do resemble much.. he definitely has a unique mix of korean and indian blood.. yah?? lemme have a say for Joakim whom i really pity him at some point of time.. firstly, they judges chose him to be in the few finalist whom the public had to vote for in order for them to be in the top 12 of singapore idol.. all he did was to go for the audition.. so getting in aint his fault yah? secondly, the public love him for some reason.. him being cute or they think he can sing, or they just love him.. so why do u all keep talking bad about him when he gets in round after round.. even the judges complain about him.. but dear judges.. aint u all the ones who decide their fate in the first place when u know he will be competing for the top 12 spots for singapore idol 2?? in conclusion. i dun tink its his fault when he gets in round after round.. its first the judges fault den the publics problem.. not HIS oki?? so stop boo-ing him and such stuff.. and now he's out.. are u happy about it? come on lah people.. since when life is fair? just look at idol 1.. olinda sang so well.. lost weight, wore a skirt.. she oso never end up the champion though her vocals were strong what.. daphne oso gt out from like the final 4.. people say sly cant sing at times.. but he was in the final 2.. cos people like his a bit beng look? cos he can be marketed into the industry? no one knows what reason.. bt sly had his share of having an album(or issit 2 albums) and taufik had his album oso.. so stop complaining about results.. if you're not happy, just vote for others whom u think deserve a spot in there lah! if u dowan to spend money on votes, den dun complain that people you dun like are still in the competition i done with my rants.. so its time for u to tink about what i have just said! @ 1:28 AM
gathering remember my last post if u had read it already? yeap yeap.. met up with them just now.. hrmmz.. lemme see.. officially when
guess wats the worst part? before main course we had : i will always feel dam bloated when we meet up.. the funny thing is that we eat a lot.. but its never in a classy posh restaurant.. whenever we meet will be cheap indulgence.. but lotsa FOOD at late timing.. haha! gosh.. i cnat turn fat.. i changed my wardrobe remember? and i have a wedding to attend in oct remember? i wanna look good when im there with my friends.. =D Friday, September 01, 2006 @ 10:32 PM
peace ^^ finally having peace in camp but this is not gonna last forever.. spongebob will be back on like tues? tt's the dam part of my peace.. im gonna miss it dearly... since its so peaceful for the week, nuttin much has happened in camp, neither has anything happened in my social life.. was home the whole of last week.. and guess it'll be the same this week. BUT will be visiting comex like tmr? alone though.. mayb can catch ivan loh(dunno whether ng is attached since he can me oh so mysterious at times) there since his gf is workin over there.. dun wanna know his gf too.. haha.. know le oso no use.. lalala.. intentions for comex tmr: - get a webcam for my sis.. her bf will be headin to europe for his phd like in oct.. its a 2 years thingy.. hope things will work out fine for them.. afterall its like a relationship over 8 years le.. - get a lcd monitor(wonder where am i goin to get the money) but my monitor is like sucky.. there are a healthy number of colors that i cannot see with my monitor.. same goes for the brightness.. there's somehthing wrong. - get an external usb port.. comes in handy.. real handy.. since all my usb port are at the back.. so troublesome lor.. and this mounts up to an amount that i dun wish to tink.. webcam lets say good one cost abt 80? and my usb port heard from ivan its abt 18(with 4 ports)? den lemme see.. the tricky one is the lcd.. it costs like 200+ to 300+ for a good one.. i know.. its cheaper den last time.. but still.. im only an nsf leh.. and im totally broke.. no more money broke... cant dig into my savings anymore.. it has DEPLETED somehow.. and the money.. haiz.. shall not talk and think about such issues.. Hui's bro is getting married.. and somehow her mother wants her to invite me to the wedding.. wonder hw issit link cos its not hui's wedding.. but i promised to go.. since some other sec school friends will be going as well... just take it as a sec school gathering lor.. anyway its a wedding lunch and tt day is my mom bday.. so just dress nice nice for like 2 occasions.. haha! guess i will be getting myself a thin tie and mayb a shirt.. bt no pants and leather shoes for the wedding i honna attennd... since its a lunch and i dun wish to appear too formal.. wanna have the street wear cum formal look.. maybe turn out a bit emo look~ lOl!~ month of september wants : - lacoste shoes (saw them at royal sporting house.. dam cool! i like at least.. $89) - indoor tanning session with sun tanning studio.. 10 sessions ($430.. tink nsf gt 35% discount) so anyone wanna sponsor for any of the above..!?!!? i accept funds transfer, cheque or direct payment.. hiak hiak hiak! u can buy me stuff like the lcd monitor oso.. i wud open my arms and give u a BIG hug with a TIGHT squeeze.. and accept my gifts.. oh yah! 三姑六婆+八公 meeting again tmr.. but not all the 三姑s will be attending.. i shall go for cheap food tmr.. hope meanie2 can pluck my brows for me too.. that is provided we go to some void deck.. do in coffeeshop i oso pai sei can? joke of the week - someone said im going to join project superstar |
