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Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 6:18 PM
m&m (minlu and musheng) this blog is suppose to be back dated till like friday? finally had a chance to meet up with my 2 primary school buds.. Minlu and Musheng.. Musheng def had a hard time tryin to make this happen. thks dude! i really appreciate it.. deep down in my heart.. was really nice.. AND YOU GUYS BETTER LET ME PAY NEXT TIME YA?? lemme pay for the food the next time.. i can pay one oki!?!!? although ns but tink i should do my part oso lor.. dun despise me.. *humph* bUt.. im sorry spaced out for a few times.. really didnt mean to.. i was kinda stoned cos i just woke up from a short short napp before i met u guys.. and secondly.. it was a bit of my fault that i went missing for some time.. guess it somehow made me lose some common topics... some common frds with you guys.. i'll try my best to catch up with u all kae..? ***** jer im sorry if i branded u as the only guy friend whu does stupid things to irrtate me... you are not alone.. =P had 10km run today... was shiok.. yet the same time i guess its kinda tiring.. outta here! Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 12:11 AM
refreshment course 2 - the jinx*d how funny did we manage to form the jinx*d.. and there's always hiccups in this group of friendship i guess.. trying to bring myself down the road of memory to recall how i got to know them. how jinx*d was formed. and the times we have been together.. before that.. let's take a look at jinx*d first *click for larger image  jingxian (j), ivan (i), noelle (n), xiaofu (x), jeremy(*), david(d) my first impression of jingxian and noelle - wah lao eh.. so dao[cocky lidat] and they travel in a pair, regardless where they go.. look a bit like sisters but not twins. one smokes while the other dosen't. character wise they were somehow opposites initially.. one was more unfriendly while the other is friendlier. still i didnt tok to them.. *p/s i was quite a loner in skool for the first week ivan - wah!! ah beng with the macdonald head.. haha! xiaofu - young boy mix with old people leh.. they were like the 3 / 4 muskerteers.. haha.. but looks can be deceiving.. jer - ang gong siao??[tattoo fanatic] and it proved to be true for jer and at some point of time we were really dam sway... be it academic for some or relationships for the others.. we were just dam sway.. and lynnie came up with the jinxed.. we definitely had many great moments together as a group. but as far as im concerned, the last true group outing was like injan when we celebrated jer's bday.. i didnt even manage to get all of them to celebrate my 21st bday.. i had absentees.. was upset den and maybe sore now but i chose to keep quiet.. among the group. i may not be the closest to xiaofu, may not agree to many things jer does esp when it comes to tattoos. may not understand lynn's temper at times, may not like marian's stupidity, may not like the way ivan treats or does some stuff.. bt i know, as a friend we accept each other for who they are, not expecting them to change to suit us but still we can be together and have fun. that's why we are called friends. im not the perfect person either with my big god dam attitude and mood swings problem. but they have gracefully accepted me as well. remember during college days ivan and i somehow gt into quite a few fights but things turned out fine after some time.. remembered people were sayin we were childish.. we quarreled on the day ivan was celebrating with his bday.. and such stuff has made its way into my memory lane.. as for the other nuttin much happened between us.. except for the fact jer once hated me to the core for wat reason i dunno why.. kinda tired.. cant find the energy to type more as much as i want to.. shall end here.. hope to continue though.. just hope things will be fine~ *sighs* Sunday, August 20, 2006 @ 12:26 PM
三姑六婆+八公 yesterday met up with my juniors again. i hereby announce the gathering we get together will definitely be a 三姑六婆+八公 one. this time round instead of the normal 805 / block 15 meet ups, we changed our area to Punggol Nasi Lemak there. as usual PY was late.. really late.. before she came, we had Hong Kong style Chee Cheong Fun with prawn, chicken, Charsiew and mushroom fillings. had dim sum from 和记包. and desserts(which weren't exactly fantastic) i had 3 drinks as usual which is as always 1 coffee, 1 tea and 1 milo(lidat den wun feel like nauseous) things were fine before the digicam came out from jess bag. we started cam whoring.. took many photos of the SAME people at the SAME position.. reason is because "my face too fat" "my eyes not open" "my fringe not in place" "the fan blowing lah!" yea.. they were the main reasons why were have been cam whoring for an hour or so. we were laughing like mad.. we were loud.. i wonder whether the people around got irritated by our noise. but one thing for sure we did feel a lil disgraced by ourselves(we usually gather at places where there are fewer people) still it was fun to be a whore!  *click for larger image Friday, August 18, 2006 @ 10:31 PM
bitch rantings *disclamer if u do not wish to be offended by the contents below, pls dun read. if u wish to carry on dun u dare complain abt what i say. i hold the responisibility to say this cos whatever u read mite not be wat u want to see. esp when this is a bitchy entry. this is an entry dedicated to my bitchiness. yes i haven been so bitchy lately and today i bitched for so long. guess there will always be bitch rantings 2, 3, 4 and so on cos i'm basically a bitch at times and things ard me happen to be so god dam bitchy at times..  pardon me but this is the one i tink suits that bas***d best. spongebob square pants(let's just shorten it to ssp) some of us nickname him.. in military helmet.. haha! suits him best.. out "beloved" csm with that god dam evil smile on his face. what the hell does he want from us? the first time i saw him i told some people ard me that this guy is not a simple person and we have to beware of him. den he tried to be nice to us. so i told my friends something like i wonder what kind of person he really is tryin to treat us like oki, quite nice. deep in my heart i told myself again to beware of him cos this guy seems like he cannot be trifled with.. i still keep my distance from him. i dun even wish him to know me. i start to try not to step into the office which i love to go cos can listen to gossips and chat in that air con place. . *p/s slacker tan said that spongebob square pants is better den ssp cos spongebob entertains people first things first ssp is sucha slow runner la! wonder hw he cleared his windows lor.. god dam. must be undertable lor.. and god know how he mange to siam icct if its true that he havent cleared it.. back to wat happened today. ssp decided to give a false alarm by sayin standby area at 2.15pm, a false alarm that there is a chance to book out early. bt u know what time did it delay until? fuking 4pm lidar la.. nabei den ask pple to get ready so early for wat.. can u use your tiny brain? just because u are nt satisfied with one room dosen't mean other rooms are not to your god dam standard right? den he makes us clear everything from the table in out room and nuttin to be placed in the wooden cabinet top. den why give us the table and place the wooden cabinet there? u mite as well remove it. OC said we could put things there and make ourselves feel at home and of cos he also said that by doing this he can at least try to know us better.. that aint the worst we can expect from ssp. he just gets all the sai kang(unnessasary jobs) for us to do lor. he thinks we're very free. we are not humans. we are not civil servants if u want to put it in a nice term. he assumes we are cleaners. all we nid to do is clean the sai kang that are supposed to and not supposed to be tasked to us. den chooses to do unnessasary work and make us busy. that's what he is kinda good at. he said rsm complained abt our long hair. but problem is i havent seen rsm for the past few days and i guess most of my friends havent too.. so how could he complain about us having long hair? is he thinks our hair is long but wants to pretend to be the good man huh.. i also havent heard from my previous csm saying that rsm complains that our hair is long lor.. he come here about 3 weeks kena le meh.. wah.. fast leh.. cos his "seafood" not expensive huh.. just some cheapo sri lanka crabs(not that its not nice.. it taste good oki.. just some example) so he quoted"next time when i catch u withlong hair i bring u to the barber and cut wat i want[GI] den make u sign the minor offence book" so i sign the book because my hair was slightly off standard.. it was 1 cm longer than its suppose to be huh? if i so happen to get caught i'll just ask the uncle to do me a deed and shave it off lor. see what can he do.. the most i dun go out for 1 - 2 months of just go out with a hat/cap since i have like at least 3 of them. he now wants us to be in no.4 and fall in at parade square at 730 every mornin when there's no exercise aka mornin run. oki.. tink that's all about ssp i can tink of rite now.. the baileys i had just now is somehow stoppin my brain to malfunction.. and YES! i did drink baileys your eyes are not playing a trick on you. but the thing is that i drank it at home, alone.. then is lee ming hui.. i pity him becos no one seems to like him. but i cant be much bothered cos i dun like him either. so yesterday he booked out, half day. came back ard lunch time. den was lunch parade. we were suppose to be in smart no.4 bt he wasnt!! oh my! even my so called gay buddy said by some pple(he's not my gay buddy, cos he aint gay though..) changed already and u know what? he came in later den lee ming hui.. so i was the bitchy mean one and informed his immediate superior.. haha! mean rite? so he said cant pump him cos of his status.. so i just said something like warn scold or recommand something.. hahah.. shall stop tis story here.. i tink im so evil.. i dowan my horns to grow out  and there's mr sai.. as usual no one likes him too.. though i tink he's slightly better den lee ming hui.. i havent done anything bad to him yet.. but i have been mean with my words whenever it comes to him.. not sure whether he heard them not though.. tink tis is a kinda long entry.. hope it dosen't bore those who actualli choose to read it!~ till my next bitch rantings.. guess i wun be bitchin much for the moment.. entries will stil come flowin when i have time and things to blog about though!~ Wednesday, August 16, 2006 @ 8:50 PM
sinking shack-ness *digression meanie 2 is tryin to accuse me of changing a packet of crisscut friess for a free brow plucking session!! im not oki. even without the fries i will get meanie 2 to pluck moi brows for me when i want to.. hahax! just woke up from a short 1hr nap. really havent had real rest since like wat? sunday nite? went in camp early at 9ish after dinner with my family. den slept like 12ish 1.. woke up at 530am in the morning for breakfast and preparation for my mates in camp for the live range.. SHAG! worst thing that happened on monday? accident... wun yada about the accident. but take note there was an accident.. because of this, i had wo go down to the coy office at wat? 11PM.. WHY? to write a fucking statement(view point of the bqck passenger) tmd.. reach bunk gt air combo(1 turbo engine(julian's snorin, 1 engine(fat dragon's snore and the sniffer(mr ESTASY sniffing). so result of air combo - sleeping LATE.. Tues woke up as early to do the same shit.. tot could go back to get some rest before sending lunch to the peepz.. BUT could only go back to camp at 930AM. nvm.. BUT had to look for MTO to write the FUCKING statement again. so i could not catch any sleep at ALL!! after the statement writing, had no chance to REST bt no choice had to pack lunch for them to eat.. and today? guess wat.. had to WAKE UP EARLIER.. just to go to pasir ris park for run -_-" *p/s joey has given birth to her baby girl already.. congrats joey.. mother liao.. dun play a fool le leh.. Saturday, August 12, 2006 @ 9:37 PM
refreshment course 1 do u still remember what you have done in school? did you do something that u were very proud of when u were in school? did you? did you? did you? well i remember that during the 2 years in college i definitely had fond memories of what i have done back den. why? cos DTM den was the WOW class! we made our trainers(lecturers) proud of us. we did things people thought was a waste of time? we made sure that we scored well. we wanted the best we could get. so remember this?  im sorry i only have this pic left in my computer. but im not talking about the people.. see the green and brown thing behind? my class took the effort to draw 2 backdrops for the theme party project we had. total of more den 10m in length i believe. it was just green and brown trees and nuttin else.. y? cos the theme was enchanting forest. we had the uniforms sewn and cut. shirts bought and bleached. all cost saving. bt we still spent. i even had to bake the swiss rolls for the dessert to cut cost!! and the outcome of it was good response and of cos, good grades! den do u remember this?  again im sorry i dun have the whole picture of the class(cos i formatted my com and lost a fair bit of photos) but still. it was the amazing chase we called it. the first chase people in SHATEC had, but was exclusive for the class if i hadn't remembered it wrongly.. had loadsa fun runnin ard places.. lots of sweat..  Miss Cheryl Tok wanted us to go christmas caroling around petals, SHAVilla and rosette(inside shavilla) the few of us volunteered.. had quite a few practices at YC's house. Leona's frd even helped us by playing the guitar and joined us in the singing too.. that time i remember very clearly that i was having a swollen ear cos i pierced my ear.. dinner after the singing was at FUNAN's foodcourt.. Lynnie joined us by being the camera lady who somehow made us look slanted on TV =P  remember this cute little boy?  if it dosent ring a bell, remember this photo? we took 1.5hrs to raise funds for the assisi hospice.. that boy i was with  and this was how i look like. i went to buy the mask just for the charity drive.  the peepz who dressed up for the charity drive  the @ 7:12 PM
moi 1st saturday after 3 months i finally got a saturday free.. bt i was kinda lost for a moment, wondered what can be done on a saturday.. cos i havent had saturdays for a real long time... went to Rendezvous hotel for lunch buffet with some of my campmates, didn't want to go initially but after second tots guess it was better to go and not to be the mean me who refuse to entertain them. buffet spread wasnt fantastic at all.. but for the price i pay i'll say its oki. spread of local cuisine was little, main course was little and not fantastic(the roast duck wasnt nice). the only nice food there was the.. lemme see mixed grill. initially onli had chicken and beef and dam. den later part when there wasnt beef they replaced it with lamb that has more fats den meat.. non of us were full after main course, the ONLY reason why we were full was because of the wide spread of desserts they had. was not bad =D after that popped by office for a while talked to jim a lil and proceeded to centrepoint BoBBi Brown counter to look for meanie 2 and pass her crisscut fries from carls jr. promised to get her some food.. waited for junior cum friend Liyin to leave office cos she wanted to do shopping and i was kinda free.. went to metro and saw the sweater/jacket she wanted to buy.. bt too bad, no size, friendly sales person volunteered to help to check with the wholesaler whether stock wud be coming in not. den we just wondered around till 6ish and i decided to come home while she headed to city hall to wait for her aunt i believe? to go for dinner and catch the last fireworks displayed by team France. still feeling full after lunch.. Wednesday, August 09, 2006 @ 12:12 AM
11 months and i still dun like it today marks the 11th month of me being in the army.. and i still dun like it in one way or another.. why am i in Singapore now? last year somewhere this time i was in australia, enjoying myself with my friends, and now? im stuck in Singapore and involved in ndp(nt tt i dun likebt i dun understand why actual day still wan us to go so early.. cant we rest at home?) things seemed to have strained in camp today with regards to the outcamp run this friday at bishan park and some other issues + some issues that upset me.. 1. we were asked to go back by 930pm when usually we have to book in by 11pm - REASON WAS THAT WE NEEDED 7hrs OF SLEEP -_-" 2. some who stayed near were allowed to go from home. - IT TAKES ME ABT 30min TO GO TO BISHAN PARK FROM MY HSE(direct bus) and i was asked to go back camp.. means i will spend 1hr to camp, and like 45min to bishan park -_-" 3.CSM is tryin to make changes, changes that no one can accept.. changing us to a battalion like place? when im livin in a brigade.. things are done for people to see? i dun tink so lor.. not always 4. if i were asked to wear my smart no.4 every mon, weds and fri for a first parade at the parade square i tink its a waste of time seriously, we're just accounting for strength. and moreover the HQ coy people are in smart no.4 only when they have essential duties.. 5. was suppose to meet marian last week, but she say no mood cos phone spoil, den say this tues, den she say dowan to meet say she not meeting anyone and in her blog she say she going on hiatus, haven't she realised i havent seen her for a loooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnng time? 6. im starting to count how many friends i have again. whether they can fill up the 10 fingers i have. 7. god dam hp bill mounted to an amount of 167.. wonder how i used it. 680min of off peak hr talk time.. 1030 smses.. in exchange i tink i gt 2 weeks of nice chats and 2 weeks of no chats.. 8. im too tired to catch fireworks, mayb i cant find a love one to go with me?? =/ too tired to tink anymore, have to wake up at 6am and im still awake.. i tink im havin another bad week.. Happy 41st birthday Singapore!!~ Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 11:59 PM
迷路兵 is there anyone out there whu supports them? i for one kinda like them. 3 people but definitely makes nice music.. they gt back to the competition after being booted out once.. particularly like their rendition of 不想长大 reminds me of a friend also. once told me refused to grow up. i totally understand why. cos when one grows up, the burden on the shoulders gets heavier.. so here it goes.. 王八蛋 and 不想长大 enjoy! *ps i voted twice for them leh.. ('',) glad they won, i'll consider buying their album u know? @ 10:21 AM
something sad as usual, i blog hop a lot and i saw this entry in one of the blogs i read. definitelly one of the saddest entry i have seen so far.. ******* Bao Bei... i really wanted to tell u these... but im afraid dat i will scare u away... dat i think im in love with u... for the past 2 days, i have been thinking non-stop abt u... i want to control thought but my subconsciousness wont obey... images of u keep surfacing up from my sea of thoughts... those moments we spent together...despite dat i have done my best to dispel them... the whole time i was dying to msg u while u were in school... i was waiting desperately for u to come online...cos i wanted to know where u r... it was already 7+ pm... but u were still not home as ur msn appeared offline to me... guess u went out with ur frens... nvm... i will wait for u to come home... finally, at 9+ i see u online... should i talk to u? or not? im hesitent... will u find me bugging? constantly pesterring u? cos afterall im, perhaps, just a friend to u... but u talked to me 1st... dat really blow me out of my mine... u dont know how delighted i was when i see ur msn chat window pop out on the monitor... i suddenly feel very cheap... ur every move influences my emotions... why i suddenly become so gu niang? where is my usual composure? where is my coolness? they are nothing when facing u... i really dont know how to maintain our relationship anymore... im afraid dat if i continue to avoid u, u may misunderstand me dat i dont like u therefore i ignore u... NO... i keep a distance from u cos u r too precious to me... im a fraid dat 1 day u will forget me... i was eager to speak to u... and ask u how ur day had been... but i held back... why?... cos im not sure if im anything more than just a normal friend to u... so i only asked if u had taken ur meal and reminded u to take ur medicine... the stuff dat normal friends would say to each other... but u seemed busy to entertain me... im afraid to guess ur thoughts... wat if u actually think of me as a bug, a pester, a loser...(sorry to use this word again... i still remember vividly how u told me not to call myself dat again... but its wat im feeling right now...) Bao Bei, i love you. do you know? no, you dont... u better not... cos i know dat u r already very vexed with ur troubled relationship with ur bf... yes, ur bf... u r attached... dat is wat i have been reminding myself all these while... while i desperately struggled to escape ur mesmerisation... alrite alrite... u have won the battle... i lost... u happy? wad la... just trying to relax the tension here... sorry... dat day we went out... i can see dat u were not happy... thinking abt ur bf? ...zzzz... why did i bother to ask... i guess u were not really with me when we were spending time together... am i right on this? yes? no? nvm... since either 1 wont make me feel better... u love ur bf... u dont love me... ouch... *prang*... something broke... wat broke?... my heart... yell, "somebody save me..." ....zzzz.... i hear only my echo... u told me abt how ur bf's family is trying to intervent this relationship and break up the 2 of u. do u know how i felt? no, i didnt feel happy... i felt sad... cos i know dat u will be engulfed by sorrow if u break up with ur bf... u love ur bf. so i did my best to encourage u to have more faith in urself and ur bf, and i adviced u how u should handle the problem so u can maintain ur relationship with ur bf... do u know how i felt? my heart was bleeding... but dats alright... cos i know dat u will be happy if u can remain by the side of ur bf... and its all worth it to me... how i feel is not important... its how u will feel dat is important to me... to love is not to possess, but to sacrifice... and i did dat... haha im proud of myself... hehe... dots... not funny... Bao Bei must be happy k? then i will be happy too... *hugz* Bao Bei, i love you. and im sorry abt the incident... u said i wasnt myself... and some other things which i didnt manage to catch... honestly i dont understand wat u were trying to convey to me... sorry, im insensitive... sorry, im blunt... sorry, im obtuse... but 1 thing u were right... i wasnt exactly myself... cos i know dat u werent exactly urself... u dont really mean to do it... wat i think? its ok if u were just seeking sanctuary in me... u were carrying too heavy a burden and u wanted a break... im willing to share it for u... Bao Bei, go ahead and find ur happiness... dont feel dat u owe me anything... cos i did everything for u on my own accord...willingly...unregretful... im here for u to hold on to if u ever meet abstacles again... cos Bao Bei i love you. i dont know for how long this feeling for u will last...cos i cant forever wait here for u... one day, one day, i will fall out of love with u, get over u and fall for somebody else... but i promise u dat i will try my best to prevent dat day from arriving... but, when dat day comes, u will no longer find me waiting for u, standing by ur side...cos i would have already moved on... if dat really happens... pls dont change ur mind and come look for me... let me go... i cant love you anymore... but i will still remember u as someone whom i once so dearly loved... someone whom i once regarded as my everything... its been a long time since i last felt such passionate a love... since my 1st love... Bao Bei, i love you. its ok if u dont love me. as long u r able to love the person u love, im happy for u... Cos Bao Bei, i love you... i really do... Friday, August 04, 2006 @ 9:42 PM
ippt, empty feeling had ippt test today, still wondering whether i can pass not.. the 2.4km was as usual the killer.. had stitch again, dAv's single life really would like to come to an end. this is not a low-mo entry like wat Mr Kan Pua Koon Bei Ki will say. guess im starting to feel lonely.. and nids someone to share my life with me. am i starting to sound like an old man? |